PART- I
I still remember my days at IIT. IIT, the most respected and the most prestigious institute in
India where lakhs of students all over the country want to get in. Thousands of application forms spread over the table, only the best among the best are selected. IIT is a dream for lakhs of Indians. But, only few can break that diamond…
Today after a long journey, being a successful person I still remember my days at IIT Kharagpur. Today, I again go back into my golden, cherished moments; the dreams, aspirations, success and failures at IIT…
The results of the IIT were declared. The rapid beats of my heart increased. The air beside me felt mum. But, the feeling of ecstasy soon filled my about to break feelings when I learnt that I am selected at IIT, It was far more pleasing and satisfying than conquering the Everest. It was just like a dream come true… I got an AIR of 02.
The happiness of getting into IIT came with the dreaded feeling of leaving home. I had to stay alone. Now, the time had come to lead a life of responsibilities at the hostel. It was an epitome of the cursed life of Julius Caesar. On a bright sunshine morning in the year 1995, I took my luggage and started a journey of a bright future at IIT…
PART- II
Abhang Gadkari, a Marathi manoos from Mumbai was my first friend at the campus. He stood tall, with dark sparkling eyes, a snow-white skin and a clean combed hair. He wore a light pink coloured shirt and a black colored pant. “Hi, I’m Trishit Banerjee from Mumbai. You…?” I asked him when I first met him. “I’m Abhang. Abhang Gadkari also from Mumbai. Nice to meet you.” He said in a silent, slow and in a matured voice, with each word pronounced just perfectly while he was a Marathi and not a firangi. In our first meeting we discussed so many things and knew each other very closely. The best thing about him was that he cracked IIT without coaching! He got an AIR of 05. I wondered if he would have had got coaching, he would have got an AIR of 01!
“What your parents do?” I asked him casually. “My mother is a school-teacher. My father…” he stopped. His eyes were filled with tears and I could see he had curses to die. “M-m-y-y f-father-r d-d-ied in the ’93 b-blas-sts.” Tears rolled down his cheeks. Now, silence for him seemed like an assassin. “After my father died, we had a lot of financial problems. My mother was the happiest person, when she learnt that I am selected at IIT with a good rank. Ah! What about you?” He asked me in a sudden curiosity. “My father is a mechanical engineer and my mother, a housewife.” We felt silent again. I pondered that I got guidance at every step of my life. What about him?
“Hey, what happened? Lost in your own world? C’mon. Let’s go” he came back again in his cheerful gay mood. For now, we headed towards our room…
PART- III
We stood before our room. The door was slightly open. We knocked 2-3 times, but, there was no response. We opened the door. The room was dark and smoky with a smell of alcohol and hashish mingling in the air. We found the switch. I put on the light. There was a boy, with uncombed hair, lying on the sofa and was murmuring “I want to die. I’m fed up; I want to die; I’m fed up…” There was an empty bottle on the table with a glass fallen and alcohol dripping on the floor. The room was also very messy. We couldn’t see anything due to the smoke of hashish. We cleared the room for this moment but still it was untidy. There were 3 beds and one sofa. We didn’t understand what was going on?
Dinner time came up. “We should pick him up and inform him about the dinner” suggested Abhang. “Fine, as you say.” I replied. We tried to call him but there were no signs of awakening. After some time we left the room for dinner. We came back in 1 hr. He was still lying on the sofa. We took the blanket and went to sleep after a tiresome day.
The birds chirped and sunlight pierced through the window. The mysterious boy became even more mysterious when we saw him completely ready in a formal dress. It seemed that last night we were drunk, since we got up late as compared to him…
“Please introduce yourselves with your AIRs.” asked the professor. The mysterious boy got up and said, “Akanksh Chaudhari from Uttar Pradesh. AIR- 01” Everyone’s mouth hung open in amazement. It included me and Abhang also. The boy who is a drunkard, drug addict has got an AIR- 01! It was like stabbing oneself! I pondered, if he is so good in studies then why this habit? It was a very big doubt that IIT had put before me…
PART- IV
After the Applied Mechanics lecture, we three went in our room. 4 months has passed at IIT. The happiness of brilliance of Akanksh came with the sadness of his habit and anger too. I planned to complain to the authorities about Akanksh, but Abhang stopped me every time saying that we should know about him, his habit though he refuses to tell! It was true. Akanksh was a very good friend of ours but he never told his story. We didn’t even know who his parents were and what do they do? We only knew that Akanksh lives in some corner of UP and has an AIR-01 at IIT-JEE and is a drunkard and a drug addict.
That evening he asked us for going out on a trip around Kharagpur. We were more interested in this trip since it was a chance to know Akanksh more deeply. We took a rickshaw and moved down to the main city. “Let’s buy a watch.” Akanksh suggested. “Watch, why?” asked Abhang in a distressed curious mood. “I want to buy.” Said Akanksh in a joyful mood. It showed that he preferred to spend more and he was rich! He bought a watch, an expensive pen and lots of clothing. After that, there was a shock! We went to a bar. He drank 3 glasses of alcohol! He offered us but we always remembered our real aim at IIT, to make a respectable career.
Abhang was quiet mature and patient in all these things. He said ‘NO’ but in a very polite manner.
Akanksh drank alcohol more and more as the days passed by. He smoked ‘hashish’ daily knowing that it is illegal. We didn’t understand that, was it his habit or something else than that? AIR-01 had changed, completely as compare to the 1st day. Now he travelled a life of thorns, which pinched us too. But, everything changed on the day of our results…A bad change…
PART- V
The results were put up on the main bulletin board. Blossoms bloomed again for us. I scored 96.32% and Abhang had scored 97.86%. Indeed he was more intelligent, he joined IIT without coaching! Among those success stories there were failures when we found Akanksh sitting on the floor and stamped by other students with tears dripping down his eyes like that alcohol from the glass did on the very first day. He sat empty like an empty bottle of alcohol. We understood that he failed… His present was black and past was beauty; he was for me a black beauty. “I’ve failed in a semester. Next time I would certainly make it, next time, next time…” He broke into tears. We tried to console him, but it was useless.
That evening, he wanted to give us a treat on OUR success at a bar! We wanted to avoid it. “We have some assignments to be completed; we’ll join you later some day.” I told Akanksh which was a lie which I and Abhang knew. He murmured- “No one left to call mine and no one left to be with.” We didn’t care. He shut the door which he never opened again…
PART- VI
We were busy cleaning the room until I encountered with a diary. A name with a shaky writing was written- Akanksh Chaudhari, year- 1995. “Abhang, this would tell the story of Akanksh.” I said to Abhang. “Open it.” Said Abhang. The rapid beats of heart became more rapid. We opened the diary knowing that we shouldn’t. The date opened was- 23rd March, 1995. 11:35 p.m, Thursday.
Dear diary,
Today is my birthday. I still pity on myself after I got an AIR-01 in IIT-JEE. Why? Let me tell you the history. My mother had died minutes after I was born. My father blamed me. He said that because of me, my mom had died! From 16yrs I’m under torture. My father wants me out of his home! He did not even congratulate me on my success. Today when I was packing my things for Kharagpur, he came to my room and said, “Wherever you are going, remember not to land up again at this home. Your time has come now to leave.” Diary, I felt very sad, but I would fulfil his promise and I would never come back…never…
Yours truly,
Akanksh
The pages were now closed. The doubt which disturbed us from so many days now stood crystal clear. The doubt arose at IIT, and it also got cleared at IIT. I find this place now more than a prestigious institution. We decided not to interfere. We decided to leave Akanksh on his own. For now, we are not needed here.
PART- VII
A crying noise shattered our silence. We rushed below, only to see a body arriving with our principal. Students pondered. We asked who it was? Who? There was nothing now except silence. We went near only to discover that it was Akanksh’s body…The white blossoms now were suitable to his body. He committed suicide by coming below the train. Akanksh was now no more between us…He was gone…gone forever…